2019 Mercury Retrograde has me all up in my feelings. Hard to decipher what is real and what isn’t. Don’t know whether to follow my intuition or if my mind is playing tricks on me. I’ve had many sleepless and difficult nights thus far as I am faced with some shadow work. I was stared in the face with being territorial, jealous and at times vindictive. Traits that I for sure believed I couldn’t have had in my repertoire.
I was faced to look at me and those in my circle. And trust I was in tears because I had to stare truth right in the eyes. I asked her what are you attempting to convey to me. What are you trying to warn me about. She told me that these traits would be to my demise if I did not learn how to use them correctly or succumb them.
She told me its okay to have the negative traits as they allow for growth within self. But when impeded it on others I create my own Karmic energy. This truth had me in tears because I didn’t want to think it as I didn’t want it to become a reality. What I beginning to learn is when you think something subconsciously it can become your reality. See my reality is I’m living in a fairy tale LALA land where I create the life I desire and that there will be no strife along the way.
2019 Mercury Retrograde has showed me that 2019 has been a test beyond measures of my strength. Women I’ve allowed to get close to me and my family betrayed me, lost opportunities in careers that probably wasn’t for me in the first place, seizures reoccurring reminding me to get a grip on my thoughts, a beyond rocky long distance relationship that is allowing us to grow and relearn each other and my mouth back to the cup of Jack as I begin to reconnect with my pin and paper. Out of the shit load of things that has happened and some things I rather not mention this 2019 mercury retrograde allowed for me to understand not only my strengths but also my areas for opportunities in growth (some would call weakness).
Instead of seeing and focusing on all the negative aspects of your situations, learn to observed the lessons you were able to gain from those temporary situations (as nothing last forever). Peace Kings and Queens! Until next time!
Memoirs of a Mother Queen, Uncensored! 