As the water runs down my face during my shower; I have a reflective point in my mind of some of the hardest lessons learned in my adult years. One in particular comes to mind, and it is see it through. Originally when I thought of see it through, I always think of staying still not moving to just stay. I replayed scenarios of when I had to stay but didn’t want too or seeing a project through I though I detested it; spending a night at a family members house, staying in Chicago instead of going to school abroad, relationships, teams, companies and the list goes on.
Although the experiences listed were things I didn’t necessarily want to do they were experiences that brought on lessons that at the completion, I was rewarded. Rewarded with wisdom, strength and most of all internal and external gifts. There is beauty to be seen in all situations. When we get past the negative mindset that was natured / nurtured in us from adolescents to adulthood, then we can vividly feel and see the rewards. We always want more and hence we continue to chase without learning to appreciate, value and express gratitude for what we do have. Consequently, blessings go unnoticed and we burnout and remain unsatisfied and unhappy.
In this shower, I cried. I cried for pain, I cried for joy, I cried for rejoicing. I just cried. Showers are my sanction of where I can let myself be vulnerable without those around me asking me whats wrong. Every cry is not a cry for help. Crying is a cleansing, a release of what no longer serves you a purpose. While writing now, I’m understanding more. The pleasures of writing.
When I came to write this post, I was going to revisit the past, and discuss how hurt I am and was but what purpose does that serve. I now see the lesson in learning to seeing things through as the rewards are near. There are projects, purposes and people who are waiting for me to see through; and dwelling on something that is in the rear view mirror will not move you forward. If one wants to measure the vibration frequencies of life, one most learn to flow with the waves of life. Peace comes from within! Listen to your core and go with your gut and in order to do so you must learn to stay still within the moment. That within itself is a true lesson. Peace and Blessings Kings and Queens…
Memoirs of a Mother Queen, Uncensored! 