Sleep Deprived

I always been an overthinker, even so as a child.

Most nights I rarely sleep; either because I am thinking of an ingenious idea, or I’m engulfed in the past or stressed about the future. Although, it has been a difficult task, I believe I am nearing the point of succeeding this point.

My naturopathy prescribed me a natural powder foam additive called Calm to help me relax. Well, it sort of, hmm, kind of been working; as I am able to fall asleep like a baby for a few hours before I’m awaken again with an explosive mind.

Shhhhhh thoughts, let me sleep. No, I do not want to revisit the past and create non- existent scenarios in my head; nor do I feel like being anxious about the future.

Wake up Shondra, I have this awesome idea that you need to write down. Really, right now, at this present moment?! Yes, at this moment. We all know once we entertain the thought of the idea, it almost becomes impossible to go back to sleep as now I am thinking of SMART goals to execute and achieve this excellent idea that my mind felt was so important that I needed to wake up at 3:00 am.

Tick Tock, the man-made time has passed on the clock, and guess who is sluggish and needing her daily cup of Joe! Yup this Girl. Unhealthily working off 3 hours of sleep, I must execute this wonderous Idea, while playing teachers aid, the cook, the housewife and business owner. Nope no complaints here, as I am now chugging my 4th cup of Joe.

Wired until I burn out, only to find myself sleep deprived again. I turn on frequency music, color spectrums, water falls, white noise only for my mind now to take me on a paradise trip. Woman, go to sleep, you can dream of these things as your eyes close heavily. Nope, I have a thought on how I can paint a picture of a waterfall. I am out of canvas, wood, and paint, I wonder what time Michaels opens??? Are you serious it is almost 3 am again and you’re talking about doing art projects! Even in my meditative states I am traveling LOL….

Anyone else out there Sleep deprived…..